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January 5. Nothing to Write!

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I don’t have much to wirte. No great ideas for blog post. No organized thought. But I will write because I’ve vowed to write.

I couldn’t sleep well last night, for some reason. I wonder when would I be able to sleep early and sleep through the night. The kids want to cuddle with me at night. I don’t blame them. I don’t get to spend much time with them during the day. The 3.5 hours in the afternoon that I am home, fly by too quickly. I have to take a short nap or at least lie down for a while, in quiet, otherwise I can’t concentrate on work in the evening. So an hour goes in a nap or trying to take one. The rest of the time is spent in cooking, eating, prayers and the nitty gritties. I rarely get to sit with my kids and talk to them.

Hubby is going quieter and quieter. Work isn’t too good for him right now. I hope this year will be better for him than the last one. At least he’s trying his best.

Once MiL is here, maybe things will get easier. At least for hubby. At least he won’t have to stay home with the kids all day. He’d be able to go out and do his own stuff.

For the kids, it may get harder. She probably won’t be helping them with homework and they will have to go to my friends’ house again, for studies. They have gotten used to bedtime with daddy. That will change too. Bedtime will mostly be with Grandma.

For me, it can be easier or harder. Not sure, depends on how well I and Mil handle the friction that tends to arise between us, one way or the other.

She helps with the cooking. I, truely, appreciate that. But she expects a lot from me too. Most of the time, when I am very tired from work, I tend to let the house go. If I have some free time, I’d either spend it with the kids or relax with a book or my laptop, instead of cleaning the house everyday. When MiL is here, I still do that, only she starts giving me the silent treatment, which stresses me out. But since my new year resolution includes not letting the housework slide by, hopefully I should be able to stick to it, and there won’t be a lot of friction.

I haven’t been able to achieve much at work today.

I was supposed to write an article  – I didn’t.

I was supposed to send a couple of thank you mails – I didn’t

I was supposed to do quite a few things – I didn’t.

I spent most of my morning, sending out refund requests to various application developers on Google Play. I hope I will get a refund on that.

That should bring down my stress level to an extent.

That’s all for now~

First Working Day of 2015

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So far, I’m going ok with keeping things under control.

My house is still a mess, but better than before. Today I did manage to put in a few minutes to tidy things up a little. Here’s what I achieved:

1. I had no dirty dishes piled in the kitchen sink when I left for work in the morning and then again in the evening after my afternoon break. Yes I work weird hours. 5 Hours in the morning and then 3 hours in the evening.

2. The toilet, bathroom sink, and bathroom floor are somewhat clean!

3. There is not laundry lying on the living room couch to be put away.

4. Managed to tick away some of the to-do tasks on my work list as well.

5. Emailed google support and got a refund for a small portion of what my kids had accidentally spent. The rest of the refund requests, for the bigger amounts are still under review.

What I couldn’t manage:

1. No vaccum, sweeping, mopping or dusting done!

2. The kids watched more TV than I would have liked – as usual

3. The hubby is still grumpy and not smiling for some reason.

I think that’s not bad!

This week shouldn’t be too hard, as the kids are still on winter break and I don’t have to get up at 5:30 am for them. I wake up at 8 o’clock. Getting proper sleep makes a very big difference to my general mood, my health and to what I am able to achieve in a single day.

Next week, when school re-opens, I don’t know how will it go. But I am trying to take one day at a time.

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Happy 2015!

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18 minutes till the end of the first day of 2015!

Let’s get over with the customary first:

Happy New Year!

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So I haven’t written in here till the tidings of the shifting to the new department.

One lucky day, in the Summer of 2014, my CEO passed by my desk and said “K, would you like to work in the Marketing department?” I was thrilled and of course I said yes.

However, being the always-worrying, anxiety struck person I am, I, later went to him and asked him, for the reason. I was worried that maybe I was being moved because my line manager was happy with me. Though I hoped that wasn’t the case. I told him that I would be glad with the position, if it’s being given to me for a positive reason. But in case, my line manager in the current department is not happy with me, I would prefer to stay here and resolve any hiccups in my work before I move to another department. He said “K, people who have issues with their performance do not get promotions. I want you to see it as a promotion”

Great!

Several weeks went by, but no word came about the promotion.

I set up, yet another appointment with my CEO to find out what happened. And guess what. He goes, “I have not totally made up my mind about it”. I was disappointed and I clearly told him so.  I told him, I would be really disappointed and demotivated if I am not moved to the Marketing department now. “Why would you be disappointed’?, he asked.

“Because I want to work in Marketing”. And that was the truth. That’s what I had tried for, since the day I set foot in the organization, a few months back.

“Then it’s fine. The last time I talked to you, you didn’t sound very sure about it. I want people in marketing, who want to do nothing else but marketing”.

Great and so I got the switch on November 16.

Moving on to December 31, my kids made some erroneous purchases on the google play store with the company’s credit card, the info for which was saved on my google account, on my phone. It a good couple and a half thousand! I talked to my boss about repaying it in 5 to 6 installments. He said he will approve 4 installments but would give me an additional bonus for my ‘outstanding’ performance in this year. So that’s the good part!

I have yet to contact Google Playstore Support to check if I can get a refund. If that is done, that would be awesome.

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Coming back to the subject of the new year, my new year resolution is to get organized.

My life is so out of control. At work, things are a mess. I get caught up between several things and end up doing nothing.

My house is a mess.

I have roaches in the kitchen.

The beds are never made.

The curtains are never changed.

I need to get the walls painted, they are filthy dirty.

And all this is a constant source of stress.

I spend hours on my phone. On Facebook!

I can never sleep at the hour I need to sleep. For some reason I can’t stop browsing and I can’t hit the sack.

I don’t read anymore.

I don’t write anymore.

I need to get things into place.

Sometimes it gets so bad, I feel so overwhelmed, that I just cry! That I want to run away from everything. I feel like everything is just slipping out from between my fingers.

See? I can’t even write coherently.